I almost relapsed. With our new move coming up and my state of mind being that of a stressful mush, I posed a question to my husband...should we put the girls in school? He, in short, said yes. I took that quick answer in a variety of ways, including the thought that he probably thought I wasn't doing a good job and that things would be better if the girls went to school.
After making my mind up that we would do this, I felt that we were making a bad decision. My heart was heavy. I saw on the news two stories of abuse in schools in our state. Another story on a predator grabbing a child on her way home from school and not to mention all of the indoctrination going on towards the humanistic point of view. My girls love God. They sing praises to him all day long. How long would that last if I allowed them to be immersed into the most anti God culture our society has produced thus far? My husband also felt these things too. He was just trying to make me happy by saying yes, not thinking of the implications or my frazzled state of mind. I love him.
So, as I said, I almost relapsed. But my sanity has been reintstated and we are going to keep on keeping on.
I read that with my heart in my throat and a desperate need to call you to convince you to change your mind - not at all knowing what I would say.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad your going to keep on keeping on. If you ever need encouragement just call me. Tell me what's on your mind. I've probably been close to where you are.
Thank you Mel. Yes, it hasn't been easy. I think some days oh it would just be easier to follow the norm and do what everyone else is doing. Then I can free up my days and have freedom. Ha, very bad thinking. John reminded me that when others are criticising our choices that the apostle Paul talked of this very thing. That the world will be confused and not understand our ways.
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