Why do the holidays make me mostly grumpy? Is it the eight boxes of decorations that are now scattered among my living room waiting for me to find a home for each little piece? Children begging me every two minutes to decorate the tree....now. As if it is one easy task to be done quickly. I find myself overwhelmed with daily life and the idea of creating this magical surrounding for all to enjoy and wondering when I am going to wash the same bedding for the second day in a row because the baby puked everywhere. My oldest is hiding from me in her room because I finally blew up at her for shoving Christmas lights in my face while I am trying to calm a screaming baby.
I know I am in the wrong.
I feel it to my core.
But, I feel like I can't quite grasp how to juggle all this at once, and not hurt my children with frustrated, angry words.
Is this the spirit of Christmas? Definately not...at the moment I am having a hard time finding it.
I think the best thing to do right now is to stop, breath deep, and remember Jesus and what He has done for us. Even in the midst of my turmoil, He, the Innocent Lamb, died for me.
You don't need to juggle it all at once. Just pick a few decorating projects and work through those with the girls. Take the rest of the month off of school books (the beauty of homeschooling).
ReplyDeleteI'm pretty sure that your babies won't remember the things mommy didn't get done. Kids remember the silly things. The time mommy put on a silly song and danced with them in a silly hat. Or the time you let them put a tacky string of popcorn around the tree.
In a kids world half-way is just about perfect.
And when the stress comes to an explosion point, you can always throw mashed potatoes at somebody. The Dad's a pretty good sport, yes?
And remember - this, too, shall pass. And too quickly at that.
You are right Mel. Thank you for reminding me that it doesn't have to be perfect. I get this idea in my head and when life doesn't flow the right direction to make it all happen how I picture it, I get my feathers all ruffled. Eeaks I need to chill.
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