With great zeal I went to the ladies retreat in the mountains. Looking for a laugh or two, some camaraderie, and some inspiration to go home and pour out to my family.
I did, indeed, laugh some. Thank you my friend who keeps things light ;)
But
Yes. yes. that word.
But I was not prepared mentally for the weekend and it wore me out more than I already was before I went.
The weekend was based on a Beth Moore study of Loving Well.
Good. I can use some encouragement there.
The video conference was great and I was excited after the first session to find ways to apply these ideas to my life.
And here comes the but.
But, they split us into small groups after each session.
Instead of focusing on the topic of loving others well, loving God well, and getting the focus off of ourselves; my group was a cry session of all of the awfulness, worry, anxieties people have been carrying around.
I went to the retreat seeking refuge from the world.... and these small groups were big vats of yuck to me. I felt more depressed after listening to the other women then before I went.
"Aren't we at this retreat to learn to focus away from ourselves and focus on the joy that the Lord brings in our lives? " I asked myself.
I couldn't sleep.
I felt itchy all over the second day just to go home and be with my family and go to church and soak up the Word and worship God, really worship HIM.
I drove the two hours home and exhausted from the weekend "away" I walked into the loving arms of my family.
What is wrong fellow sisters in Christ?
We are forgiven.
We are new in Christ.
Why are we still sulking around like the world is still pressing us down? (I am not saying life is easy, I know things are hard- but we need to have hope, to trust, to seek His peace)
It is a joy to know our eternity will be with our Savior, let's try living it, eh?
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