A rant post

As you may well know, I am hormonal right now. :)
Not that it is an excuse, but I am just saying....
At my work, where I am there like clock work at 5:15 in the morning with my smile on, I left a note for my boss, who is hard to come by to not put me on the schedule starting in October.
She, in return, sends me a nasty email about disrespecting her and the fact that I will probably not get to come back due to taking such a long maternity leave.
....there was more but the details are insignificant.
I don't know why, but ever since I was a child, authority figures in my life have rubbed me raw. 
And, Lord knows, I have prayed about this issue and worked hard on becoming more loving, less selfish, and less prideful....you know.
But, for some reason the last year with this lady has been  a sore spot that she tends to rub now and then.  Today was the last straw and I feel that old anger and rage to lash out bubbling up inside of me.  It makes me want to flat out quit and make a bad gesture or two.  My contractions since reading the email have been 6 min. apart and I am not due till Dec. 10.  (Which she reminded me of)
Anyways....pray for me, I am weak.